Monday, July 26, 2010

a whole day at the compound with the mrs, and little mister.
looking forward to a time when were a little further outside of society, having conversations about moving slowly off the grid. a little land, a little man, and a big future. i cant say were asking for much. we want to teach our little boy the right way to do things.... and even the basic idea of doing things. i think its fucking sad that something as simple as changing your own oil,or mowing your own lawn has been completely wiped away in almost a single generation. all lost to convenience.
theres a bit to be said for the convenience of modern living, but i do believe theres far more to be said for self sufficiency. theres a great satisfaction that comes with knowing you are capable of providing for your family.
i am finding that task rather difficult at the moment, ive been a bit duped by the promise of comfort and luxury, at the cost of knowledge. this is something that will most assuredly change drastically over the next couple years. it is a horrible ,suffocating feeling, thinking that you cannot provide the type of life that you wish for your child.
and im not talking about anything lavish here, im talking about necessities. i cannot remember a time in my adult life that i have been this poor. as well, i cannot think of a time that i have ever been happier. sacrifices i suppose.
there is nothing worth more to me than the welfare of my mrs and child. this will continue to remain my focus in the coming months. i suppose im just pondering the difficulty of possession. and im making conscious efforts to possess less tangible items. this is something i will surely stress to my little boy, or as i like to call him, "the belly monster", or the "be ba", or "baby man"
and to my mrs, to whom i am reading this aloud, you are my life,my love, the reason i rise and fall with every day, it is to you that i owe a debt , the debt of gratitude for bringing to my life the wonder of my little boy.
and to you the reader, hold precious the love in your life, it is something of incalculable value, that i do hope you realize a lot earlier in life than i have.
my inspiration for today is wasted time, and the butterflies that come with the kiss of a beautiful woman

Sunday, July 25, 2010

this will never pass

you think somewhere, somehow, that its possible.... but it will undoubtedly never happen to you. well it has indeed happened to me. i know a love so strong, for a woman, and my child, that it will most certainly never see a rival. for this, all my gratitude, and all my thanks.
today my inspiration is late night infomercials from horrible local tattoo studios, and knowing that i am capable of far more than i have ever given myself credit for.